October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Tonight at 7:00pm we light our candles and remember our losses. Those losses are often difficult to think about but were such an important part of our journey and each will always hold a special place in our hearts.
We never held those babies. Never felt them kick. My belly never grew. We don't know if they were boys or girls. They didn't have names or even heartbeats. So many people don't understand the emotions attached to such a loss. To someone you never really knew. But each one represented a future. We daydreamed about life with a baby. a child. a teenager. We changed our lives to make way for them. We worked hard to be able to provide for them. We picked out names and nursery colors. Because for most people, a pregnancy results in a baby nine months later.
Tonight we remember those dreams. Those hopes. Those plans. Those lives. But we do so with a smile because we know our time to be parents will come. And those little lives will never be forgotten. They helped us on our journey, changed our lives and our way of thinking and feeling. When we finally do hold our first baby in our arms we will be that much more grateful. Because of them.
To those of you who are lighting candles of your own tonight, know that you are in our thoughts. Stay strong.