Round 1: Results

To say that I was an emotional wreck all day would be an understatement. It is day ten of the seven to ten days I had to wait for my first round of testing results.

I have been so busy since I had the tests done that I was able to keep my mind off of it for the most part. But today? I had today off work, no demanding sewing projects, and all the time in the world to wait by the phone. I felt like I was in college again, waiting by the phone wondering if that cute guy I gave my number to the night before was going to call.

After three phone calls, two emails, and one voicemail I finally got the call back from the doctor (I know, I was annoying but I am not a patient person). The call came at 5:30pm, possibly the absolute latest you can expect a call from the doc. At this point I had already given up. I was on my second glass of wine (don't judge) and tears of frustration were already on my cheeks. The waiting and the unknown were killing me. It had become too much. And then the phone rings. I immediately cleared my throat and hoped that he couldn't hear the crying in my voice.

Everything came back normal. As my doc put it: "it's a double edged sword". It's good that I am healthy but at the same time we still have no answers as to why I have miscarried three times. It's not like I wanted something to be wrong with me but I would like some answers, something we could do to fix this, whatever "this" may be.

As soon as Aunt Flow makes her grand appearance we will begin Round 2 of testing. Which will hopefully be soon, although there are no guarantees since my body has become a stranger to me as of late.

I will be praying for answers. and patience. and for my husband who has to deal with all of the emotions and hormones exploding from within me. I hope you will do the same.

Happy Birthday Little Bro

Today my little brother turned fifteen. He is over six feet tall, attending high school, and in just a few hours, he will be driving. This completely baffles me.

I still remember the day he was born. In fact, I was there in the room and one of the first people to lay eyes on that adorable baby boy. I helped pick out his name. Took him to his first movie in the theater. Taught him how to tie his shoes and sing the ABC's. Read to him. Sang to him. Rocked him to sleep. In my eyes, he was mine. And in many ways I still see him that way.

Our almost ten year age difference has allowed us a special kind of friendship. He calls me for advice, homework help, and when he is too bored to think of anything else to do. I attend as many baseball games and school functions as humanly possible. I have spent fifteen years looking out for him, making sure he is safe and happy. The funny thing is, over the past couple of years I have noticed him doing the same for me.

I realized just how grown up he was becoming right before he walked me down the aisle on my wedding day. I was confused and worried because they made a last minute change to our entrance and he looked me right in the eyes and told me it was going to be ok and that the new entrance was going to be great. At that moment I saw the man he was becoming and the little boy he once was vanishing.

I could not be more proud of him. He had a great example in our father and I know as he looks down on him today, he sees that it is because of him that my not so little brother is turning into such an incredible young man.

A lot of changes are coming his way. Girlfriends, cars, decisions, sports, new friends, thoughts of college, temptations. I can't wait to see what he does with his life because I know it will be great. As long as he remembers that no matter how tall he gets, he will always be my little brother.

Happy Birthday little bro. I love you.

Emmys 2010

The Emmy Awards were last night and while I only made it through the comedy awards before getting bored (which is the first section) I did watch the red carpet event. And let's be honest, that's the best part anyway.

There were so many gorgeous dresses but one caught my eye more than any other. Ms Claire Danes was looking mighty stunning in her shiny strapless gown. If only I had a reason to wear such a gown... and the money to buy it.

Of course the red carpet wasn't all shiny goodness. There were plenty "what was she thinking"s. The worst one being the True Blood beauty Anna Paquin. I wasn't aware that bedazzled football pads were appropriate for award shows? Bleh.

Sunday Funday! (and a little work too)

This morning was the first time I have brought Love, Megan out into the real world (as in, not the internet). And let me tell you, it was so much fun! Just being there when people saw my things for the first time and hearing their comments was so worth the sunburn and sore feet. Although the sales sure didn't hurt either :)

Setting up my table was amazing and seeing everything spread out like that made me realize how much stuff I have made!

I had a lovely helper to assist me in preparing the table (twice actually since the rain caused me to close up and run for cover for a bit). She kept me calm and helped make everything look beautiful! How did I get so lucky to have friends like that?

The Summer Soiree was a hit and I am happy to have been able to help raise some money for a great school like the Providence Academy. And now I am going to prop up my feet while wearing the cupcake pj's that I have had on since 3:30 this afternoon. Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Goodbye unemployment

And hello new job!

As much as I love staying at home and taking care of my pups, sewing all day, keeping the house clean, and constantly doing projects around the house the bank account no longer allows me to do so. Lucky for me I found a job that combines things I love, allows me to make my own schedule, and sounds incredibly fun!

I will be working at a Family Enrichment center teaching sewing classes to kids and one adult beginner class! During the interview, the owner saw that I have a degree in Elementary Ed and asked if I would be interested in tutoring as well. Of course I said yes because it sounds great and I'm not good at saying no :)

One of the best things about the new job is that I make my own schedule. I start Monday with tutoring and while I am there I will set up the schedule for my sewing classes. I'm pretty excited and a tad nervous! I have experience teaching and lots of experience sewing but I have never combined the two. It will be great though, I already have a million ideas.

I will be sure to share the projects we make and instructions so you or your kiddos can make them too! I'm so ready for this new adventure!

ps - They asked if I would be interested in teaching a cooking class.... hahahahaha they are so funny.

Waiting...

After sitting by the phone all day yesterday and jumping at every little noise it made, I still have no results. Around 2pm I finally gave in and called the OBGYN office to make sure the results weren't just sitting there waiting to be given to me. That's when they told me that it could be seven to ten days before the results come in! What?? They originally told me four days. I was mentally prepared to wait four days so ten days sounds like an eternity.

However, my impatience is nothing compared to the hubs anxiety on the matter. He called and texted me all day yesterday and the day before asking if I had heard anything yet. Silly hubs, doesn't he know that I would call him immediately? I don't mind though, I think it's really sweet.

In other news, I have a job interview tomorrow! I am a little nervous about it because it's not something I have ever done before but it combines several things I love so I need to just walk in there with confidence (even if it is a little false).

Thanks everyone for the well wishes about the results. Hopefully we find out something soon and it's good news :)

Handy Hubby

The hubs made me these awesome displays for my iphone Snuggies out of a couple of old shelves we had in the garage. He's pretty handy! I suppose I will keep him around for a while ;)

ps- We should be getting the results for our first round of tests tomorrow. I'm not freaking out or anything. Nope.